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| Dang I havent been on here for the longest time....ahahhahah....its like a diary of my past that i cant forget....i seem so childish and whiny...ahahahaha
But I am in a better state of mind then i used to be...people have done their bad to me and wonder why i dont like them...or still call me stuck up after that...please if you are talking S*it about me of course i am not gonna talk to you ...GET REAL....dont be such a fake....i am a nice person..jus dont get me mad or else....(yes thats a threat)
ON GUYS: hymm dont care too much for them anymore i dont even know why i am gay now...i hate being gay but then i like being who i am...guys are dumb......
ON DRAMA: You guessed right although we try to prevent as much drama as possible ...it still follows me everywhere i go...why are you guys so jealous of me...??? there is nothing to be jealous about...their are only so many gay hmong people in the world...why do you feel the need to destroy everyone of us so that you can get what you want...(this is directed towards someone ....but i wont say thier name) Get a life and stop photoshopping your face ...FAKE ASS....LOL....
ON LIFE: same o same o i guess jus working i got a lil fat but then i am losing weight i lost like 10 pounds in two weeks so thats good...
WELL I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED....
Please support britney her new album circus is awesome you can go listen to it at britneyspears.com its a really good album ....she is back...
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| LIES LIES LIES...the world is full of lies... we lie to our frens, parents, siblings, anyone but most importantly we lie to ourselves... we lie about the one we love and deny that we dont like them but yet we do somewhere deep down inside we lie about our sexuality so that people wont think so differently of us.... we lie about out financial needs so that we can have nice things we lie about everything | | |
| There is this guy that i have been thinkin about for the past three years. I get butterflies in my stomach when i think about him my hands become sweaty and my voice becomes a nervous wreck. I really am falling in love with him. But he is some what in the closet. I think i broke his heart by goin away for a long time but then again i dont know. He is the first person that i have had such a hard time reading him to see wats on his mind. The past two relationships that i have had have been so rough ...but everytime something bad happens i jus think about him and everything goes away. I dont know how to quite explain our relationship...lets jus say its probabaly non existent at the moment cause i still think he wonders if anyone knows. Yes, he is in the closet. I am so scared at the same time because i dont want to get hurt. I really care about him and i know he knows that but i dont know if he cares about me too....its kinda like brokeback mountain..one person wants this beautiful life but the other person is too scared to share that life with him...he still holds true in my heart has always been in my heart...i will wait for him even if it means that i am not gonna date anyone....cause seriously i cant see myself with anyone else anymore ..i found him and thats all i need to know...but if i have to live my life alone because he is in the closet then i guess thats wat my destiny is.. | | |
| "these moments as beautiful as they are ....they are evil when they are gone"-ultra violet
something about this saying has a true meaning to it because it does happened
i can only remember the evil parts of my unwritten story but i can never remember those that are beautiful
is it because the ones that are the most evil are the ones that we mostly remember?
i cant remember when i was really happy...i can only see when those bad things happened to me and bad things
that they really did....i think my happiest moment would have to be when i am on that stage and i can only see myself and to pour your heart out on stage and give it your all is
something that truly makes me happy...
we have many moments in out life that we cherish ...but most of them disappear when things start to happen
most people would say stop thinking about it ...but really wat else are you suppose to think of when that is the one thing that truly is bothering you
lately i been having many evil moments and evil thoughts...been tryin to remember why i loved him so
but then when i think about him my heart knows nothing..only knows disappointment
and i only know hate in my heart.......
i lost the ability to want to believe and have faith and hope jus because you believe and you believe
and yet you are jus there ...nothing happens.....
at this rate i dont think i would let anyone in on me ....wats my story you say....
i am still trying to write it....
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| I am so fucking tired of people giving me unecessary drama in my life. STOP BEING SO FUCKIN JEALOUS!!!!!! Man this world is full of haters ...thank god for global warming...its time to kill everybody and start all over ...i cant wait to die...i wanna be reborn into a world where there is not hate no jealousy, no greed, and all we do is love...GLOBAL WARMING HURRY UP AND COME ....!!! | | |
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